go on

i am so happy. i don't need to clarify that because i don't owe it to anyone to prove it. i just am.

it's weird to stare at three months left in a place you love, with people you love, and a job and a home and a lifestyle you love.

it's funny how hard it is to move on from something you love! you get so wrapped around it, you make it your life, it becomes everything to you and the thought of giving it up is so scary because you don't know what you will get in place of it. and, you love it. you really love it, but you know, under the circumstances, you have to go. when you are ready to even attempt to leave it, millions of thoughts about how what you will find instead will never match up to it cloud your mind. it's beyond scary because you just don't know.

but, then again, that's how i felt when i left a place i loved the last time, and look at how things are now. i hope i always have the confidence to make choices that lead me into the unknown